Weird...

<<< Funny/Random right? I made this while at work the other day. The wireless internet was not working and I was bored. I don't even know what is going on in this picture. LOL...I hope no one thinks I'm some crazy person lol. I just clicked any random thing and put it on a blue background. I like it though...it's sooo random...it's my laptop wallpaper too lol.

These past few days have been weird and busy in a way. Not busy in life, but busy with schoolwork. Ugh...I had to B-S my Philosophy paper because I haven't purchased the book yet. I'm really scared to see what my grade is going to be. I used my resources and I really tried my best...so I guess I can't be mad at myself if I don't grade as high=/. I have a new storyboard to do for my Broadcast Writing class all the time. That's ok though...I like getting into my major and doing what is going to help me out one day. =]

I've been feeling weird though. I don't know what it is, but it's just like I feel out of place at times. I don't like that feeling. Hopefully everything will feel right soon lol. I really can't get in depth about it because I just don't know where it's coming from lol.

I have also made an important decision regarding a lifetime commitment I will be enduring in later this year if God permits. I can not really get into it, but I will say this: I am extremely dedicated and determined to succeed in everyone of my future endeavors. All I need is the strength of my God and assurance to fulfill my goal his year. It's scary how I am so afraid of it. I feel as though I have a fire in me that will take more than rain to extinguish, but I'm extremely terrified of rain storms...do you understand what I mean? I don't like to get my heart broken. My dreams and aspirations....when they are not met...my heart aches...truthfully. Cheesy? I know...but it is true. I just need to pray and have faith that I will fulfill my goal this year because only through HIM will I succeed =].

Sole Pulse - My Work (Copyright) lol

Soul Pulse

Do you hear my beating heart?
The music it plays when we are united
The vibrational energy it consists…
Propagated through matter creating sound waves that always seem to excite…

…Excite me…
The abundance in waves creating an ocean
Without a grasp of air I can be left drowning
Into a sea of sounds in motion

Do you feel my beating heart?
Every pump giving out a repeated, rhythmic contraction
Every beat’s sound emerging
As the tips of your fingers touch…

…Touch the keys on the piano…
Following my heart’s beat to assess your musical creation
Providing lessons to my heart
…on pulse profusion

Do you see my beating heart?
Pulses piercing inwards, outwards my chest
Painting on a canvas full of elevations
Only smooth when you caress…

…Caress the waves caused by massive compression
Seen every time you lay your eyes on my canvas
You can see the colors formed from my beating heart
And as long as you continue … this rainbow will forever last

Thus, will you be my beating heart?
We can link all of the illustrations and sounds in the dark
All conceived when you hear, you touch, you see,
And become one with my beating heart…

…Be one with my beating heart
Not plural, just one
Let’s merge into one
Two minds, one heart


I love poetry...and I feel so free when I write. I love the gift of word...

I usually don't like to share, but I guess since my writings are part of me...I should share...since this blog is kind of part of me too =]

Hours of Confinement ... Sike Just Kidding =]

Soo...I'm here in my dorm room...bored!!! LMAO

I'm waiting for my friends to call me so we can go to a party occurring here on campus. During this wait, I managed to clean my room, sweep and mop the floor, rearrange some posters and quotes I have on my wall, pass the hair iron through my hair, take a shower, get dress, and clean my face and all that extra good stuff. ... LMAO... MAN... I really had a lot of time on my hands today.

I hope I have a lot of fun tonight at this party...well...I think I will. My friends and I make the best out of any occasion ;). But ugh...I have to go to work tomorrow morning... for 9 hours!!!! I'm going to be so beat!...and...if the party really is off the charts...then there will probably be an after party. Here I go again! It's funny though because I like to go to parties but I'm not any type of party animal. I just love to dance with my girls, take pictures, and meet new people =). Networking is always a good thing. =)

Here are some pictures that i took during my hours of solitude ... LMAO ... Enjoy! =]

PS - Making The Band 4 !!! Monday!!! =] I love Aundrea from Danity Kane =]

Happy Birthday...to Who??? ME! lol

"Birthdays are a time of celebration. You tend to forget your birthday, and when your friends and loved ones remembers it, you get a joy profound."



My birthday just passed (it was yesterday, Jan 22). Yesterday was also the first day of class =(. The day was so weird. For the first time ever, I wasn't very excited about my birthday. I woke up feeling "blah." At one point, I was laying on my bed feeling so UN - motivated to do ANYTHING! My friends and I were supposed to go to a hookah bar for my b day but I told one of them to scratch it bc I didn't feel like doing much that day (Sad?...I know). I was just so bummed out with school. I really need to buy my books. I don't feel like I can get into the class without it bc I my teachers are not playing with those books! Ugh...even Dance class requires some sort of book!!! Ridiculous!! ...lol

My friends always seem to pull through though. They through me a surprise birthday party...not too big...just how I love it! I entered my friend's room...they were holding a cake (with green...my fav color!)...I blew the candles...and then they blindfolded me!!!! LMAO...I sat down and omg!!! there was a dude on top of me giving me a lapdance!!! LMAOOOO I thought it was someone else...but it was one of my guy friends from school!!! Too funny!!! ...You had to be there!

Taylor gave me the cutest belly rings to add to my collection...and one had a pink star (my 2nd fav color)!

The rest of the night now??? I rather keep that for myself lmaoo =P

Jason's Lyric

"...What you found is quiet...in a world full of thunder...you've got no choice but to listen to it" --- Jason's Lyric

Sensual Seduction??

Tell me this is not funny? Snoop is too funny!!! We all know how infatuated he is with the music and style of the 70s but wow....I know no one expected this..

Honestly...I always love to see artists explore with sound and their creativity in general...so I say...Good Job Snoop! The lyrics now....idk... "Doggy Dogg is a freak..freak..freak" but hey! that's Snoop! Can't help but love him lol.

Denzel!!!!

Wow....so much has occurred since the last time I wrote. I'm not sure where to begin...

Well...today I went to TRL with my friends and I got to meet Denzel Washington!!! =] You can catch me on tv Thursday....I will be teaching him the souljah boy!!!! I know...how ridiculous? hah!!! anything to get to meet him I say!!! lol Hopefully when I interview him in the future when I begin my entertainment media career...he will not remember this moment!! ha!

It's funny because I was going to write before how FINE I thought the guy in "The Great Debaters" was and I got to see him today...he looks EVEN better in person!!! ooh wee!!! lol Jurnee Smollett is beautiful in person too. I remember when she was in Full House! =]

I missed my girls too! I haven't seen two of them since the end of last semester! I move back on Sunday so...more adventures for us to come!! lol jeje...oh yea...we're oing to 106 and Park tomorrow...and Souljah Boy will be there...ugh!!!!


Here is a video of our train ride back home...my two friends...this is exactly why I love them!!!

Ohh La La

Sooo...today I FINALLY got my IPod...I love her! Her name is Snowflake =]. I was sad for a bit though bc I couldn't get it engraved at the Apple Store. I first ordered it online so I can get it engraved but there was some hassles with that so I had to buy it at the store. My friend asked this engraving place though if they engrave IPods...and they said yes...so let's see how this goes bc the Apple Store said that it's too thin to get engraved or what not...hopefully I can get it though...bc it just doesn't feel complete =(

I want it to say:

Find Peace in Beats N Breaks
Keila.Hip Hop.Liberation

Hot right? Yea...I really thought it through lol

Nas Always makes me Happy =]

HaHa!! Yes! Love Him! Do it Nas! =]

Nothing Much...except I tend to sleep half my life away lol

"You should know
you’re my angel
nothing’s gonna make you fall from heaven
girl I just wanna love you" --Jon B


What ever happened to Jon B? Man...I LOVE this song!!! I remember getting my friends hooked on this song...YEARS after it came out. I've always been an old school head lol...not to say that this is old school...but at like 11 yrs old...everything before that year was considered old school to me. LMAO

But anyways...I was at A Hot Mess and they had the video for this song featured. Just thought I post it up since it's one of my JAMS!!!!


VERY RANDOM

You know what's sexy to me? Pitbull speaking Spanish! LMAO OOh Wee!!!! I don't know why...but I find it hot! lol

Toodles!

I Can't Wait ...

Jaja...this is exactly why I love Nas...I'm not sure if this is his new album cover, but I love it! He always finds a new way to grasp the audience's attention. In this cover, he looks very well suited and educated. A metaphor maybe? ...obviously the get up definitely represents the opposite of the traditional nig***.

One Time for Ya Mind

"It's a dangerous necessity, it's the world famous mystery. LOVE" --Mos Def

How Dope???

Remember this?

Man, you can not tell me that this is not a FUN video...

Everyone looks like they're having a blast!!! I would be where all the skateboarders are...jeje...I love me a dude who can skate! ;)


Jaja...and Pharrell chasing me around would definitely add to the excitement.

I love when Jay Z says, "I'm too old to be frontin'" LMAO...jaja...YOU ARE SO RIGHT!!!


Look at a younger Lauren London...that's straight up Nu Nu there...it's cool too how she was featured in one of Pharrell's later videos too...of course that was post-ATL movie =]

And ooh!!! you can tell this was around the time digital cameras were first peaking through the scene because that camera is oh so not modern lol...back then it was fire though!

Aww...I love Pharrell...he is truly talented. You can not knock that from him.A lot of people ridiculed me for liking his solo effort...but I honestly liked it! His rhymes weren't the best ya know...but his delivery was what made the songs appeal to me...plus...I love when he sings so the soft records gave him points =]

Well, toodles! =]

JAJA

I got some videos!!! All the videos weren't uploaded from last night because simply...it takes too long LMAO...Youtube is a pain at times lol

So yea....Enjoy!!

++My friends are too funny!!!!












OH YEA!!!! I forgot!!! I found some videos on my YouTube account...thought I share a bit LMAO...Enjoy!! (again)



That's from Prom ... last year




In the words of my friend Sharrod..."Burnt crisp"...this was when we took a road trip last year





This was also last year...yea I know...I look like a HOBO with no shoes playing DDR!!!! Oh well.....hate it or love it.... =]

Pics from Yesterday

I finally kept my promise and posted *some pictures from the outing yesterday =]...Enjoy.

C**chie Fart? Huh? lol

Today was fun.

First, I went back to Arts High to visit some faculty that i miss including Mr. Denard. I love that guy...he has helped me out a lot through out high school. Mr. Denard has a way with noticing the little things no one else sees ... in me especially. That is why he is one of my favorite people. =]

Looking back...I am so proud of myself. I have grown enormously...in the interior...and ofcourse the exterior. In a way...I felt out of place at Arts today. I think it's because I was ready to leave the school. That chapter of my life was ready to reach its zenith. I still love and cherish the school, the memories, and the people I've met there. Hopefully my little sister gets accepted to the school when she auditions soon. Speaking of which...I have to go help her with her audition.


Part Two



After my visit, I met up with some old friends and went to NYC (<3 that place!). We shopped around (of course...I couldn't resist)...took pictures =] and recorded videos jeje...and ate at ESPN Zone. It was a blast!!! No drama!!!! Thank God.

I have so much footage of our crazy conversations. too many to post...and I have a whole bunch of pictures from the day. Such a good time...great memories.


I'll post some videos tomorrow =]

Also...some pictures lol

JeJe =]

HaHA!!!! Guess who has a laptop???? .... ME!!!!!

I'm so happy!!! My mom/dad gave it to me for my birthday (my b day is Jan 22...so yea its early but who cares!).

I love it...it's so pretty and it's GOOD...my cousin's husband is part of Geek Squad at Best Buy...he recommended it to us! =]

So umm yea...Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully 08 will be an unforgettable year! I have a feeling music is going to be REAL good this year...let's hope I'm right! =]


PS - I want to go HOOKAH!!! Who wants to take me ey?