IWantYou.

Forgive me, I'm in a Marvin mood (as always).

Rolling Stone's dubbed Marvin Gaye #6 on their list of "The Greatest Singers of All Time" and #18 (I think) for their list of "The Greatest Artists of All Time."

Marvin Gaye was an astounding ARTIST, not only singer, but overall ARTIST. He played several instruments, wrote his music as well as music for other artists, produced, and the voice of course, you can't forget the voice (3-octave range, incredible for a male singer).

"I Want You" seems to be a favorite, and here's a video of one of Marvin's jam sessions with the band:



I wish I was alive to see him live, quite a character.



And one more for fun ;)

Insomnia,

I have been experiencing the most inspirational moments in my life worth some penmanship, but sadly, my pen is still in need of ink. SOMETHING is stopping me from writing, I just don't know what it is yet, but I have so much literature in my head urging to be written. For now, here are some songs that represent the way I am feeling at this moment.

"Insomnia" --Jill Scott

(How could a song be so perfect in describing the state that I am in, right this second?)

It is 4 a.m.
And I'm waiting in our (my) bed alone,
Dreaming of your embrace
(Why hasn't he called me? I don't understand it)
Wishing you would come back home

But you don't call,
And you don't come,
And you don't say,
That you miss me
And you don't stop
To say hi
On your way by
I'm feeling crazy

It is 5 a.m.
And I'm waiting by the phone again
This is not how it's 'sposed to be
You're 'sposed to be here with me

But you're gone now
You're just gone now
You don't even think about the way I feel
You're just gone now
You're just gone now
When I know you should be right here

It's 6 o'clock in the morning
And I'm so tired of yawning
I am miserable and feeling blue
Cause all I really want is you

But you don't call,
And you don't come,
And you don't say,
That you miss me

And you don't stop
To say hi
On your way by
I'm feeling crazy

It's 7 o'clock in the a.m.
In 15 minutes this alarm will be ringing
At work,no one will feel my pain
It's a shame the way this whole thing changed

But you're go'n now
You're just go'n now
You don't think about the way I feel
You're just go'n now
You're just go'n now
When you know that you should be right here

But you don't call,
And you don't come,
And you don't say,
That you miss me
No,no,no,no
And you don't stop
To say hi
On your way by
This is crazy

Brrring...
Time to wake up,
And put on my strong face
And hope that no one will know


-----This part right here, is EXACTLY the way I feel-----

(Jill Speaking:)

You have managed to turn me
from a woman of substance into a
brick flying, calling too damn much
crying and crying
spying way down down low,
with flats on

From the opposite side of the bar
easy off, loaded on top of your car chick
I never intended to be this chick

Groping on smoke for her mind
or the readily dissolved remedy of it

After being chased
I've been dismissed
as just an object
Something to play with

You have managed to turn me
from a woman of substance
to this

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I don't know how a man can turn you into everything you preached against? I finally let my guard down a bit, and here I am, singing my heart out to "Insomnia." I can't even listen to love songs anymore...

"You have turned me from a woman of substance, into this..."

How true.

Flinch.

Today, I feel a mess.

How does someone have the ability to make someone feel incompetent; unable to control THEIR OWN feelings?

All of my beliefs in the subject, all thrown out the window. Oh, how I wish I could rewind time in times like this.

But God, does make us go through these situations so we can learn and grow from them.

So, tomorrow, I will try not to think about it, and put less effort because that's the opposite of today's actions. Plus, I'm probably blowing this out of the water.

These next two weeks WILL be a blast for me. So who has plans? Let me know. =]

PS- Oh yes, forgot about New Years, that's always fun! =] Hopefully me and my girls find something to do, and my dad doesn't act like an a-hole about it.

So, I hope everyone had a very merry CHRISTmas! =] May God bless you and your family, as well as mine.

'Til next time...

ForLoversOnly.

Dear God,

For Christmas, aside from blessing me with a health and love for me and my family, please bless me with great success in the year 2009. I have so many dreams and aspirations I strive to come true, but please, let 2009 be that year for me. You have blessed me to be ambitious, generous, collaborative, artistic, and an overall warm-hearted person. Thus, I ask, please let 2009, be my year! I have never believed in Santa, but I have always believed in your power Lord.

PS- Can you fill my stockings with tickets to see Maxwell live? They will be greatly appreciated.

WIth love and respect,
Keila (accent on top of the e) F. =]

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You have to admit, he's pretty amazing.

Lovers Only (my favorite :))



Simply Beautiful Cover (Phenomenal)



'Til the Cops come Knockin' (haha love him)



AND THIS IS WHY I LOVE HIM! lol

NowYouSeeMe,AndNowYouDon't!

The petty things in life.

I decided that, I need to disappear for a while when I get back to school, that means--no hang outs in friends' apartments, no pictures, no contact unless you're family or very close to me. It's just going to be me, my pen, pad, pursuing an RA job, and that good ol' broadcasting major of mine (pain in the behind, but it'll be worth it for sure).

Next semester, may be THE semester I've been waiting on for about two semesters now, and I NEED to have my head on right in order to embark in the journey successfully and, as always, whole-heartedly.

Transformation.

All day today I have been listening to basically, every song from Common [Sense] ever released, and man, he came a LONG way. "Can't Borrow a Dollar" is the rookie album, where Common is the FAN and not the artist. In "Resurrection" though, that is when Common starts walking on his own and the ARTIST really comes out. Man oh man, his words, how crazy were his words and the way they were used! "One Day it'll All Make Sense" is, in my opinion, the 'initial experimental' album (every artist usually has at least one), in which he invites several artists to create a new sound and a new feel for his music; very acoustic feel, my favorite sound. Fast forward to "Universal Mind Control," honestly, I'm a HUGE Common [Sense] fan BUT his words are most definitely drowned by the music. Don't get me wrong, the production on the album is on point, BUT I think Common could have had more substance in his lyrics. I still enjoy the album, but not for the same reason as previous albums.

I can't even hate on Common though, bc he is doing great things for him self. He is a good actor, a world wide figure crossing over to mass crowds, and so on. It's just crazy how sometimes it seems as though you have to compromise in order to reach greater success. Well, it's life, I guess.

Post-Script: Cannibus, now you can not tell that his lyrics weren't off the wall! "Making a Name for Ourselves" is a CLASSIC!!! Whoa, Cannibus BROUGHT IT, he was 'bad to the bone marrow'! ---My favorite

And, out of all of his albums, I think my two favorite have to be "Electric Circus" and "Resurrection." Good stuff ;-)

SevenPounds.

I'm a HUGE movie lover! I mean, I go to the movies at least twice a month, I would go even more if I could, trust me (lol).

Anywho, I really want to see "Seven Pounds" with Will Smith and Rosario Dawson. It seems very interesting, even though the trailer they displayed at the movies didn't really explain what the movie was centered around, but this trailer sort of, kind of, gives a good idea of what the general plot of the movie is.



I also, want to see this movie with a certain someone, let's see if it pulls through ;-).

Post-Script: I love Rosario Dawson, I think she is an amazing actress.

NewChapter.

So the semester is almost coming to a close. I have learned so much about myself; both good and bad, my strengths and my weaknesses, my . I also gained new methods of thinking for my pursuit n becoming a better me. With the new year steadily approaching, I can't wait to see what is in store for me, hopefully everything I've been praying for comes true. '09 WILL be a GOOD year.

AtThisMoment.

Do you ever feel alone, even when you're surrounded by people?

...I do, sometimes.

Or feel like you're constantly in the public eye, even when you're being lowkey?

...I do, sometimes.