MY kids WILL KNOW Michael Jackson!

Whether you hated or loved Michael, you can NOT deny his music!

Since I was a little girl, I have known of the KING OF POP! I laughed with him, danced with him (in my head), and I have cried with him.

Today, I couldn't get up from bed. I thought this was all a dream, but I was mistaken. I felt numb, but I managed to get up from bed and get ready for my busy day. I just felt like this was the most surreal thing that could occur in my life. What? Michael Jackson gone? You have to be lying! There's no way! I was JUST talking about him!

I was so distraught by the news. I couldn't hear radio, I couldn't watch tv, I couldn't go out, I was paralyzed.

But this morning, I decided to turn on the radio and I was somewhat fine, just a little numb, but then they played "I CAN'T HELP IT "

I Cant Help It - Michael Jackson
(Marsha Ambrosius from Floetry made me cry as well)!!! One of my favorites! And I just broke out! I was forcing myself not to cry, but that song triggered back so many memories. I remember having a Michael Jackson and Prince CASSETTE TAPE!!! I used to play this tape in my kitchen boombox and just JAM like I was on stage with the greats!

But Something really dawned on me today. Michael had such a tough and saddening life. Yes he was a megastar and everyone (for the most part) loved him...because Michael was not only an entertainer, a singer, a dancer...Michael was MUSIC! BUT, internally, Michael was not the happy and you can tell when you listen to songs like "Have You Seen My Childhood?"

Childhood (Theme From "Free Willy 2") - Michael Jackson

... where he showed us that HE KNEW we thought he was strange and didn't understand his eccentric behavior, but that was because he had NO childhood. This is something small that we take for granted. All Michael KNEW was being a performer. He never really got to enjoy the simplicities of being able to just walk down the street like we do. And this hurt him. You can tell, when you would watch him in documentaries. My heart went out to him, and NOT ONCE did I speak negative of him. Dead or alive.

Poor Michael.

50 years is not a long time, but today I realized that my ALMIGHTY GOD knew what he was doing. Michael served his purpose on earth, he brought us MUSIC THAT TRANSCENDS THROUGH TIME AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO. My kids WILL KNOW who Michael Jackson was to the music world. And now, although I am still hurt, I can now rejoice! Michael Jackson can FINALLY have the rest he deserves, in the heavens. And I don't know about you but I heard that Heaven in Neverland times INFINTY! So I can bet he is in a better place!

Michael is not dead he is STILL ALIVE in our hearts! His MUSIC WILL NEVER DIE.

PS- It seems like people seem to always forget that Michael cared for the world when no one else did. He has endless songs written in regards the world's injustices.

(Aaliyah's death anniversary is coming up soon too (Aug 25), I NEVER feel like myself on the day! She was my idol growing up, and when she died, I truly lost a part of me. Weird to explain, but I did. I was so indenial about her death, that it didn't dawn to me until a year after!)

Some of my favorite MJ Songs
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(There are SOOOO many, but these are for the sake of narrowing it down)

"I Can't Help It" (Off The Wall is such a great album)
"Lady in My Life"
"Liberian Girl"
"Childhood"
"You Are Not Alone" (R. Kelly actually wrote this song)
"Billie Jean" (Ofcourse!!!)
"Off The Wall"
"Want to be Starting Somethin'"

Man, there are really wayyy more than this!

So with that said, celebrate his MUSIC!! He was truly a blessing to the music world.

My condolences go out to his family as well. This is a TOUGH time. A moter must now bury her son, my heart goes out to Katherine.