"Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by"
"PS (I'm Still in Love With You)" --Rihanna
Monday, March 31, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Hot Water.
"A woman is like a tea bag- you never know how strong she is until she gets in hot water." ---Eleanor Roosevelt
A wise woman indeed. I love reading up on her; she is so empowering.
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The reason why I bring this quote up, in particular, is because...I consider myself to be very well educated with a high tolerance (doesn't necessarily mean patient) level. t truly takes much to get me mad, but once I'm there...it's hard to get me out! ...it doesn't break me...but makes me stronger!
Lately, I have been real moody; happy one second, mad the next, then confused, then sad. Who knows, maybe my monthly visitor is coming soon, but whatever the case may be...I need to shake it off because I'm not big on taking those emotions out on the wrong people (it's been happening).
I have also been thinking a lot. Most of the thoughts lingering through my head have been questions with either nothing or too much in return. Man...why can't I have everything I want in a finger snap? I guess, God makes everything hard for me because HE knows...no matter how heavy the load is...I come out victorious...I'm strong.
A wise woman indeed. I love reading up on her; she is so empowering.
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The reason why I bring this quote up, in particular, is because...I consider myself to be very well educated with a high tolerance (doesn't necessarily mean patient) level. t truly takes much to get me mad, but once I'm there...it's hard to get me out! ...it doesn't break me...but makes me stronger!
Lately, I have been real moody; happy one second, mad the next, then confused, then sad. Who knows, maybe my monthly visitor is coming soon, but whatever the case may be...I need to shake it off because I'm not big on taking those emotions out on the wrong people (it's been happening).
I have also been thinking a lot. Most of the thoughts lingering through my head have been questions with either nothing or too much in return. Man...why can't I have everything I want in a finger snap? I guess, God makes everything hard for me because HE knows...no matter how heavy the load is...I come out victorious...I'm strong.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
If I Have My Way
Have you ever felt unnoticed by the one you desire? I have ... and still do at times. Every time I see him ... I light up when notices me in return. He doesn't notice me the way that i want him to though. I just wish he would tell me what I want to hear. I have tried so hard to forget about this one guy...but I can't. On the exterior...we compliment each other. And I know he's not good for me...at least not at this point of his life, but I still insist on hoping. I meet great guys who >for a moment< make me forget about this other guy, but it's not easy. Can you all relate?
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During the summer (when I first mt him) I would play Chrisette Michele's album non-stop. So every time I think of him...I think of the songs on her album. One song in particular, "If I Have My Way," sticks out in my mind because it explains the way I feel when ever I see him.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
A Different World
When I listen to Gospel music...it's as though I enter another world. A world with no stress, no judgment from anyone, no betrayal, no insecurities...just...a world filled with blessings.
That is how I feel right now...blessed. No matter how overwhelming...I am blessed to be here with my family and loved ones...alive and healthy. I also feel that I am going to really make it in the profession I set out for myself. With the grace of my God, I will fulfill everything I set out for myself. There are always going to be people who will do anything to see you fail, it's a fact, but with the guidance of the Lord...you can surpass those "haters" and prosper.
God has brought everything my way for a reason. At times, I feel as though I can not handle it all...but I can...and I will prosper. The whole situation with my friends (yes...I still consider her a friend)...I will come out in a respectful manner as that is what the Lord wants for me. I am blessed to have situations like the one currently going on because it's all a learning process for me. I tend to care too much about people ... even if those people do not share the same care. I'm learning and I'm creating a tough shell that will allow me to care, but also care for myself as well... and most importantly... those who deserve my care.
So that is all...God bless everyone who takes time out to read my blog. I love you all. <3
Post-Script: I still remember my first Gospel concert ever...it was Donnie McClurklin...and it was the year that "We Fall Down" came out...I cried the entire concert. <3
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
New Amerykah
I know that I might be a little late, but with all that is going on in life...I haven't had the time to go CD Shopping. So, my beloved high school teacher/advisor has blessed me with Erykah Badu's new album, New Amerykah Pt. 1:4th World Order. I must say...the album is genius! Erykah never seems to disappoint me. She is extremely gifted. I love the variety of instruments used n the album...it presents the listener with a chill, relaxed aura. Of course, I must admit, it is a bit out there at times...but I still dig it. Definitely NOT a commercial album. You have to have an open ear when listening to the album. The album's stand out tracks, in my opinion, are "Telephone," "Me," "Soldier," "Amerykahn Promise," and of course "Honey."
Monday, March 17, 2008
Low
"Low"
Everybody’s talking
But they don’t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don’t want the sympathy
Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
But why’d you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
No I don’t need your number
There’s nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved
My friends are outside waiting
I’ve gotta go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscious
We both know that you can’t say that
Here's to show
For all the time I loved you so…
So...
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
Cuz what you did was low
I like to listen to music while I sleep. So most of the time, if I don't put on a playlist, I usually put my IPod on shuffle. This was one of the songs that came up. I haven't heard this song in a while and I could not stop replaying the song all night. "Low" by Kelly Clarkson really signified the way I was feeling last night. Crazy how the event that occurred today...occurred today (lol). It's as though the song was foreshadowing today.
Sometimes I feel as though...I love to crush on people...sometimes...so much that I get real disappointed when I don't receive the same feedback. It seems to be a pattern in my life that goes like this: I think someone is cute >> I like their personality >> I crush on them >> they give me signs of feeling the same way about me >> they turn around and like someone else close to me. Not only that, but sometimes they just end up liking someone totally different from me =(. I know that I'm not looking for relationships, but it's always nice to know that your crush is crushing on you too. That's why the words to this song, relate to these situations in my life.
--Enjoy.
Personality...
Sometimes I really wish I didn't care...
I wish I didn't care about what anyone felt.
I wish I didn't care about the workload I have to bare.
I wish I didn't care about anyone, but myself.
But I can't help but care. That's who I am. That's who I've always been. My heart is truly too big.
If I could just turn back the hands of time. That's exactly how I feel right about now. I'm supposed to be enjoying my week off from school, but of course I can not. If I had a nonchalant attitude towards everything than I would be enjoying myself right about now, but since I don't...I can not.
The other day, I confided in my friend to tell her that I think she should think twice about the people she trusts. Never did I bash the person we both thought I was referring to. Honestly, I wasn't directly referring to one person, I was speaking in general terms. So today I receive a comment from the person we were talking about I guess...and in a way...she was referring to me as phony and fake. That's what I got out of it. It's crazy because I don't understand how I was ever phony or fake, but she was basically implying that I was talking about her behind her back...which technically I wasn't because never did I say specifically what she has said about my other friend because I don't see that as my place. I hate drama...and that's the truth.
I have to talk to her in person though because we need to clear this out. I don't want us to stop being friends because I think she has a good heart for those who she cares about. Come on...she had a birthday party for me in her room. It was really nice of her, and I am grateful and humbled by it.
But still, in a way...I feel as though at one point...she was phony and fake to my other friend because of the things she has said...some I even have written in text messages...but I WILL NOT show them to my friend bc that is not my place...and honestly...it probably won't even make a difference becaus at the end of the day...my friend is going to believe her over me...
I just don't need more stress on my plate right now. I have so much that I am preparing for...and I REALLY don't want this to be a setback for me.
I wish I didn't care about what anyone felt.
I wish I didn't care about the workload I have to bare.
I wish I didn't care about anyone, but myself.
But I can't help but care. That's who I am. That's who I've always been. My heart is truly too big.
If I could just turn back the hands of time. That's exactly how I feel right about now. I'm supposed to be enjoying my week off from school, but of course I can not. If I had a nonchalant attitude towards everything than I would be enjoying myself right about now, but since I don't...I can not.
The other day, I confided in my friend to tell her that I think she should think twice about the people she trusts. Never did I bash the person we both thought I was referring to. Honestly, I wasn't directly referring to one person, I was speaking in general terms. So today I receive a comment from the person we were talking about I guess...and in a way...she was referring to me as phony and fake. That's what I got out of it. It's crazy because I don't understand how I was ever phony or fake, but she was basically implying that I was talking about her behind her back...which technically I wasn't because never did I say specifically what she has said about my other friend because I don't see that as my place. I hate drama...and that's the truth.
I have to talk to her in person though because we need to clear this out. I don't want us to stop being friends because I think she has a good heart for those who she cares about. Come on...she had a birthday party for me in her room. It was really nice of her, and I am grateful and humbled by it.
But still, in a way...I feel as though at one point...she was phony and fake to my other friend because of the things she has said...some I even have written in text messages...but I WILL NOT show them to my friend bc that is not my place...and honestly...it probably won't even make a difference becaus at the end of the day...my friend is going to believe her over me...
I just don't need more stress on my plate right now. I have so much that I am preparing for...and I REALLY don't want this to be a setback for me.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
My Niece, Anna Lisse's 2nd BDay
2 years ago today, the Lord blessed me such a beautiful and gentile baby girl named, Anna Lisse. Words can not describe the love I have for her. Honestly, you can say it was love at first sight. When I first saw at the hospital, I cried. I felt such a connection...I really can not explain it. These two years have really shaped me into who I am now...I've seriously grown into my skin...and she is part of that. I love her...and I know she loves me too. =]
Laughter IS the BEST medicine =]
This guy knows how to make me laugh and forget about all the craziness around me! It's weird...but he's like my therapy...anyone who can make me laugh like this guy does...bless your souls! Whenever I feel "ugh" I watch his videos and have the best laughs! So...I recommend someone like him in everyone's lives...subscribe to his youtube account: LoveBScott ... look him up...he's great!! =]
Toni Morrison
"Women's rights is not only an abstraction, a cause; it is also a personal affair. It is not only about us; it is also about me and you. Just the two of us."
-Toni Morrison
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A phenomenal writer and woman...Considered one of the thirty MOST POWERFUL WOMEN IN AMERICA (wow). Her work has so much depth and realism to it. If you have the time...and have not done so already...read her work, such as "Song for Solomon" and "Beloved."
-Toni Morrison
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A phenomenal writer and woman...Considered one of the thirty MOST POWERFUL WOMEN IN AMERICA (wow). Her work has so much depth and realism to it. If you have the time...and have not done so already...read her work, such as "Song for Solomon" and "Beloved."
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Phenomenally...
"...Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them,
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's the arch of my back
The sun in my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me..."
Excerpt from "Phenomenal Woman" - Maya Angelou
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This month is Women's History Month. In my blog, I would love to feature written work from various women not only this month, but all year round, but since this month is declared, Women's History Month, I believe it's very appropriate for my blog to showcase some work specifically by legendary and innovative women this month, such as Maya Angelou. =]
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them,
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's the arch of my back
The sun in my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me..."
Excerpt from "Phenomenal Woman" - Maya Angelou
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This month is Women's History Month. In my blog, I would love to feature written work from various women not only this month, but all year round, but since this month is declared, Women's History Month, I believe it's very appropriate for my blog to showcase some work specifically by legendary and innovative women this month, such as Maya Angelou. =]
Surprise...
I just finished seeing someone who is really dear to me. I haven't physically spoken to this person in a WHILE, and seeing this person today made me love them even more. I know that this person is strong and can do anything they put their heart and mind into. I'm so proud.
Giving this person a hug was so important to me because I know that this person really needed it...as this person told me before we said our "see you later's."
I know that this person can't read this right now, but when this person can...just know that I always supported you and will continue to do so. =]
Giving this person a hug was so important to me because I know that this person really needed it...as this person told me before we said our "see you later's."
I know that this person can't read this right now, but when this person can...just know that I always supported you and will continue to do so. =]
Friday, March 14, 2008
Paul Robeson Banquet
Sooo... the Paul Robeson banquet is coming soon ... April 24 to be exact.
I need to pay for my ticket, buy my dress, shoes possibly, get my hair, eyebrows, and nails, and make up done
It's always tough for me to make up my mind when it comes to dresses and my hair especially. I know that I want my hair up...but I don't know exactly how I want it. I'm extremely picky with my hair and I'm getting it done by someone new ... I'm nervous.
I tried this one dress on...and don't get me wrong...it was nice, but too sexy for my taste. It wasn't revealing at all, but it was really hugged up on all my curves. Ever since I gained these hips...I've been a little self conscious about them. =/
There's another dress at Black House White Market (I always get the name wrong)...it's really cute. I don't know how it looks on me yet because I did not try it on...but I have a feeling it will look nice. =)
This is the dress. I like dresses that are tight on the bust area and loose towards the hip area (lol). This dress definitely is meant to be worn with your hair up.
I love this dress...but it's like $320 =(. I can't really spend that much money on a dress at the moment =(.
So...these are some hairstyles I have come across that I like:
I think it's just a ponytail slick back...but it still looks really classy.
This one down here is a MAYBE...I really don't feel like having half of my hair down but oh well lol.
I'll find more pictures later, but i think you all can get a picture of what I'm looking for.
I want my make up to be natural as well: nude lip, rosy cheeks (not too much), my eyes to pop, and my eyebrows groomed and darker than what they naturally are bc my eyebrows are so light...I always have to paint them in.
I need to pay for my ticket, buy my dress, shoes possibly, get my hair, eyebrows, and nails, and make up done
It's always tough for me to make up my mind when it comes to dresses and my hair especially. I know that I want my hair up...but I don't know exactly how I want it. I'm extremely picky with my hair and I'm getting it done by someone new ... I'm nervous.
I tried this one dress on...and don't get me wrong...it was nice, but too sexy for my taste. It wasn't revealing at all, but it was really hugged up on all my curves. Ever since I gained these hips...I've been a little self conscious about them. =/
There's another dress at Black House White Market (I always get the name wrong)...it's really cute. I don't know how it looks on me yet because I did not try it on...but I have a feeling it will look nice. =)
This is the dress. I like dresses that are tight on the bust area and loose towards the hip area (lol). This dress definitely is meant to be worn with your hair up.
I love this dress...but it's like $320 =(. I can't really spend that much money on a dress at the moment =(.
So...these are some hairstyles I have come across that I like:
I think it's just a ponytail slick back...but it still looks really classy.
This one down here is a MAYBE...I really don't feel like having half of my hair down but oh well lol.
I'll find more pictures later, but i think you all can get a picture of what I'm looking for.
I want my make up to be natural as well: nude lip, rosy cheeks (not too much), my eyes to pop, and my eyebrows groomed and darker than what they naturally are bc my eyebrows are so light...I always have to paint them in.
Monday, March 10, 2008
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This weekend was fun.
I didn't really do much, but it was still fun because I spent it with my friend Alyssa.
The Wire's final episode was today. Honestly, I think it could've been better, but hey..that's usually what happens with finales.
I went to the mall today to look for a Paul Robeson banquet next month and I found a possibility. My friend says it looks nice, and it does...but I think it's a little to hugged up for me. Don't get me wrong...it makes my body look nice, but I prefer to keep it down...if you understand what I mean. I saw another dress too though...I have to try it on though, hopefully it looks nice because I really like it. It's a simple back cocktail dress...you can never go wrong with one.
There were other events that went down this weekend, but I don't know if I feel like typing all of that lol...maybe next time lol.
**I'm so nervous for tomorrow. I meet with my Broadcast Writing teacher to review one of my previous assignments. I don't know what exactly and why he wants to review. Hopefully he doesn't think I plagiarized because I didn't...but now a days...no one knows what's exactly considered plagiarism. Man oh man...I hope everything goes well.
>>Oh yes, tomorrow from 4 to 6 PM at the Student Center I will be registering students to donate blood to the American Red Cross. So come out and support! =]
I didn't really do much, but it was still fun because I spent it with my friend Alyssa.
The Wire's final episode was today. Honestly, I think it could've been better, but hey..that's usually what happens with finales.
I went to the mall today to look for a Paul Robeson banquet next month and I found a possibility. My friend says it looks nice, and it does...but I think it's a little to hugged up for me. Don't get me wrong...it makes my body look nice, but I prefer to keep it down...if you understand what I mean. I saw another dress too though...I have to try it on though, hopefully it looks nice because I really like it. It's a simple back cocktail dress...you can never go wrong with one.
There were other events that went down this weekend, but I don't know if I feel like typing all of that lol...maybe next time lol.
**I'm so nervous for tomorrow. I meet with my Broadcast Writing teacher to review one of my previous assignments. I don't know what exactly and why he wants to review. Hopefully he doesn't think I plagiarized because I didn't...but now a days...no one knows what's exactly considered plagiarism. Man oh man...I hope everything goes well.
>>Oh yes, tomorrow from 4 to 6 PM at the Student Center I will be registering students to donate blood to the American Red Cross. So come out and support! =]
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Unbearable!
Lately I have been feeling real...indifferent.
I really do not feel like myself. Today wasn't that bad, but yesterday and the day before...I kept to myself. The people around me have even noticed. I don't know how to explain it. I've been extremely moody these couple of days...I don't really want to be around anyone.
Stress! That is all I have been dealing with. Now, to add on to the stress...my broadcast writing professor wants to set up a meeting with me about my last news script. I think he believes I plagiarized ={...but I didn't...I used the same format for the newscasts I recorded, but I don't believe that's plagiarism. Let's see what happens...I'm unbearably scared. All I'm going to do is think about it the whole weekend. Seriously, I feel a panic attack coming soon. Hopefully, it doesn't occur during my meeting with him...but then again...that might be a good thing. God forbid it happens at all though!
This has truly been the worst weeks I have ever experienced in a long time. Have you heard the saying, "Whenever God presents you with hardships, something good always trails after"?...It goes something close to that lol. Well, hopefully that's the case with me. =}
Toodles! and God Bless
I really do not feel like myself. Today wasn't that bad, but yesterday and the day before...I kept to myself. The people around me have even noticed. I don't know how to explain it. I've been extremely moody these couple of days...I don't really want to be around anyone.
Stress! That is all I have been dealing with. Now, to add on to the stress...my broadcast writing professor wants to set up a meeting with me about my last news script. I think he believes I plagiarized ={...but I didn't...I used the same format for the newscasts I recorded, but I don't believe that's plagiarism. Let's see what happens...I'm unbearably scared. All I'm going to do is think about it the whole weekend. Seriously, I feel a panic attack coming soon. Hopefully, it doesn't occur during my meeting with him...but then again...that might be a good thing. God forbid it happens at all though!
This has truly been the worst weeks I have ever experienced in a long time. Have you heard the saying, "Whenever God presents you with hardships, something good always trails after"?...It goes something close to that lol. Well, hopefully that's the case with me. =}
Toodles! and God Bless
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Pact Between Myself and God
"You live you learn."
I'm extremely disappointed in myself.
I try never to regret what happens to me because they are all learning experiences, but I really wish I could've done things differently that night. It embarrasses me even thinking about it. I am truly not that type of person. There's no reason for me to drink...I am absolutely fine the way I am.
And what makes it worst...I went to my friend's room that night and I feel as though she took advantage of me because the next day...she posts on Facebook, inappropriate pictures of me from the previous night. I understand that it was probably funny, but I don't want people to see me in that matter. That is NOT what I represent.
I was raised with high values, morals, and standards. I try to exude education. I am a role model to my little sisters...I do not want my little sisters to think of me as anything less than who my father raised me to be.
That is why I made a commitment and pact with not only myself, but with my LORD to NOT drink until I am older and in a better position to make those type of decisions. I learned my lesson that night and I am completely grateful for the new for the newfound knowledge.
I wasn't as aware as i could've been, and I'm learning from my mistake (and I'm blessed to have the friends that I have because things could have been worst).
Thus, I hope everyone who saw me that night will just forget the night because that is what I am trying to do. I'm trying to move forward, not behind. The Lord is blessing me with the opportunity to receive a college education...I will not jeopardize that. this education is not only for myself, but for my father who wishes to receive a college education but was never able to do so. =]
*I just want to lay low for a while. That is why I deactivated my Facebook account. I'll reactivate it when I feel it's time to do so. For right now, I just want to focus on my studies, job(s), and service.
PS- I have just realized, this will make a great topic/discussion for my talk show some years from now =].
I'm extremely disappointed in myself.
I try never to regret what happens to me because they are all learning experiences, but I really wish I could've done things differently that night. It embarrasses me even thinking about it. I am truly not that type of person. There's no reason for me to drink...I am absolutely fine the way I am.
And what makes it worst...I went to my friend's room that night and I feel as though she took advantage of me because the next day...she posts on Facebook, inappropriate pictures of me from the previous night. I understand that it was probably funny, but I don't want people to see me in that matter. That is NOT what I represent.
I was raised with high values, morals, and standards. I try to exude education. I am a role model to my little sisters...I do not want my little sisters to think of me as anything less than who my father raised me to be.
That is why I made a commitment and pact with not only myself, but with my LORD to NOT drink until I am older and in a better position to make those type of decisions. I learned my lesson that night and I am completely grateful for the new for the newfound knowledge.
I wasn't as aware as i could've been, and I'm learning from my mistake (and I'm blessed to have the friends that I have because things could have been worst).
Thus, I hope everyone who saw me that night will just forget the night because that is what I am trying to do. I'm trying to move forward, not behind. The Lord is blessing me with the opportunity to receive a college education...I will not jeopardize that. this education is not only for myself, but for my father who wishes to receive a college education but was never able to do so. =]
*I just want to lay low for a while. That is why I deactivated my Facebook account. I'll reactivate it when I feel it's time to do so. For right now, I just want to focus on my studies, job(s), and service.
PS- I have just realized, this will make a great topic/discussion for my talk show some years from now =].
Stressed OUT!
"God does not give you more than what you can handle."
I believe this to be true, but at times, I can't help but feel like I can't handle the pressure.
I've been really stressed lately. It's the worst feeling in the world. My chest feels tight at times which makes me believe it can also be anxiety (I wouldn't be surprised).
The reason for the stress is school, money problems, and having to get so much information together so quickly.
I got a C- in my Philosophy Midterm =[.
My Audio teacher keeps telling me how my grade is going to suffer due to my absences because of the problem I had with my eye last month (they were excused absences, but he does not care).
My cousin knows something about me that I did not want anyone to know. I askd her to please keep it on the low, but accidentally she sent me a text message meant for someone else basically confirming what they told her about me. =/
It's raining outside right now. I'm not really a big fan of rainy days...unless I could sleep in... =]
I believe this to be true, but at times, I can't help but feel like I can't handle the pressure.
I've been really stressed lately. It's the worst feeling in the world. My chest feels tight at times which makes me believe it can also be anxiety (I wouldn't be surprised).
The reason for the stress is school, money problems, and having to get so much information together so quickly.
I got a C- in my Philosophy Midterm =[.
My Audio teacher keeps telling me how my grade is going to suffer due to my absences because of the problem I had with my eye last month (they were excused absences, but he does not care).
My cousin knows something about me that I did not want anyone to know. I askd her to please keep it on the low, but accidentally she sent me a text message meant for someone else basically confirming what they told her about me. =/
It's raining outside right now. I'm not really a big fan of rainy days...unless I could sleep in... =]
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Neutral K =]
I hate being in the middle of everything.
My group of friends are going through something right now and I feel as though I'm torn at tims because I love both groups of people...of course I hang out with two if them more than the others, but I still love them equally. What sus even more...I hate when they indirectly talk about each other and I have to listen to it. =/...and it seems like I'm always defending them in a distant way. I rather not even get into it. I like to stay neutral, but somehow I keep being pulled in at times lol.
I did community service today. I enjoyed it =). I like helping out and doing community service...truthfully. It is something I have been doing since little because of church...so it's something that i hold dear to me.
I also had an interesting conversation with someone. I am so ready to do this this semester. Of course I have to get some things situated, but I have confidence in myself and I know that I can go above and beyond to accomplish my goals.
My group of friends are going through something right now and I feel as though I'm torn at tims because I love both groups of people...of course I hang out with two if them more than the others, but I still love them equally. What sus even more...I hate when they indirectly talk about each other and I have to listen to it. =/...and it seems like I'm always defending them in a distant way. I rather not even get into it. I like to stay neutral, but somehow I keep being pulled in at times lol.
I did community service today. I enjoyed it =). I like helping out and doing community service...truthfully. It is something I have been doing since little because of church...so it's something that i hold dear to me.
I also had an interesting conversation with someone. I am so ready to do this this semester. Of course I have to get some things situated, but I have confidence in myself and I know that I can go above and beyond to accomplish my goals.
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