Pact Between Myself and God

"You live you learn."


I'm extremely disappointed in myself.


I try never to regret what happens to me because they are all learning experiences, but I really wish I could've done things differently that night. It embarrasses me even thinking about it. I am truly not that type of person. There's no reason for me to drink...I am absolutely fine the way I am.

And what makes it worst...I went to my friend's room that night and I feel as though she took advantage of me because the next day...she posts on Facebook, inappropriate pictures of me from the previous night. I understand that it was probably funny, but I don't want people to see me in that matter. That is NOT what I represent.

I was raised with high values, morals, and standards. I try to exude education. I am a role model to my little sisters...I do not want my little sisters to think of me as anything less than who my father raised me to be.


That is why I made a commitment and pact with not only myself, but with my LORD to NOT drink until I am older and in a better position to make those type of decisions. I learned my lesson that night and I am completely grateful for the new for the newfound knowledge.

I wasn't as aware as i could've been, and I'm learning from my mistake (and I'm blessed to have the friends that I have because things could have been worst).

Thus, I hope everyone who saw me that night will just forget the night because that is what I am trying to do. I'm trying to move forward, not behind. The Lord is blessing me with the opportunity to receive a college education...I will not jeopardize that. this education is not only for myself, but for my father who wishes to receive a college education but was never able to do so. =]

*I just want to lay low for a while. That is why I deactivated my Facebook account. I'll reactivate it when I feel it's time to do so. For right now, I just want to focus on my studies, job(s), and service.

PS- I have just realized, this will make a great topic/discussion for my talk show some years from now =].